so i never come here any more. but i thought i would for old times sake. p.s. my life sucks right about now but that's to be expected when you have no idea where your life is going and you're sick of your dead end job right? hopefully i'll figure it all out next year, take a year off, travel, live a little bit before i decide what the fuck i should be taking in school. oh also in one of my last journals appropriatly titled 'life decisions' i decided i knew what i wanted to do. so i applied for fine art school, guess what i didn't get in. i pretend to blame the fact that i had one week to do my profolio but truth be told i didn't try very hard. so now i'm floating around waiting for something exciting to happen. in the mean time i'm going to drink more, party more and kiss more. i also can't wait to get the fuck out of my parents house buut i can't really afford it when i'm going to school, and my boyfriend sure as shit can't afford it what with finding the money for law school. but hey atleast someone knows what they want to be when they 'grow up'. if he didn't get in, we were going to move to fernie for the year. get jobs, live together and snowboard all winter. i was so excited, so was he, but he got in and it's what he wants so i can't, and never would do anything to change that. things would be so different if he hadn't got in. so i exist until may, then i start living. that's my plan right now. move away for the summer, like i always do, just hopefully somewhere farther. or if i snap and buy a one way ticket to japan maybe i'll leave a note.

period.

I'm transfering into the School of Fine Arts next year. I can't take this crap anymore! I'm gonna do what I want!

That is all ^^

Nobody reads this shit do they? Oh well, that's hot. I'm just super bored and need to write something. I love to draw...so why is it I haven't bothered to complete anything? I'm even putting projects with friends on hold. I feel pretty bad about it. I am the ultimate procrastinator. It's the beginning of the semester and I'm already behind. Fuck I just don't care enough to try harder. I wish I did. I finally studied a bit for the first time today...for like twenty minutes. I have serious amounts of ADD. I just rather be doind something else all the time. Fuck I can't see my essays going well this term. But honestly I go to school, then I go to work, then I try to fucking wash myself and go to sleep or see my boyfriend. I just don't have much time for anything else. That's my excuse anyhow. Like right now, I've had several hours of free time, and what do I do with it. Waste the shit out of it that's what. But I've definitly cut back on my DA creeping, and I barely go on Facebook anymore either. Fuck the internet is just so boring to me right now, I need something else interesting to get addicted to for a little while. Fuck I have stigmata. I ruined my hands scalling a twelve foot fence a couple nights ago. It makes for a good story though, obviously I had been drinking, don't even get me started. So I tried to snowboard for the first time the other day. I hope to go to Fernie with my boy for reading week so I thought I better learn! But stupid as I am, I got super high first. So I'm pretty sure it would be easier if I hadn't been stoned out of my gord. I'll try again soon. But honestly even though I wish it were different, I'm positive you won't be seeing anything at all from me for quite awhile. Probably till after the summer. I just don't have the heart to sit down and draw or paint. I wish I did. God damn I really needed an art class this year. Anyway, nobody reads this shit, so kiss my grits. I won't be seeing you.

1. I don't complete any art anymore, I have about a million doodles on my computer just begging to be inked.

2. I'm working on a marketing project with a friend that owns his own business, I do the drawing.

3. School blows, but holidays are coming up soon.

4. I have a boyfriend and I love him.

5. I got my license and I rock.

6. I got a job, I don't like going, but it's ok, I need the money badly.

7. Facebook is my new obession. I have all my art work on there, doodles and what not, if your interested add me.

(Send me a message and I will tell you my name)
Elusive I am.

8. So pretty much my social life and Facebook keep me from actually posting anything here.

9. I still like to come on and creep around though.

~luff