so i never come here any more. but i thought i would for old times sake. p.s. my life sucks right about now but that's to be expected when you have no idea where your life is going and you're sick of your dead end job right? hopefully i'll figure it all out next year, take a year off, travel, live a little bit before i decide what the fuck i should be taking in school. oh also in one of my last journals appropriatly titled 'life decisions' i decided i knew what i wanted to do. so i applied for fine art school, guess what i didn't get in. i pretend to blame the fact that i had one week to do my profolio but truth be told i didn't try very hard. so now i'm floating around waiting for something exciting to happen. in the mean time i'm going to drink more, party more and kiss more. i also can't wait to get the fuck out of my parents house buut i can't really afford it when i'm going to school, and my boyfriend sure as shit can't afford it what with finding the money for law school. but hey atleast someone knows what they want to be when they 'grow up'. if he didn't get in, we were going to move to fernie for the year. get jobs, live together and snowboard all winter. i was so excited, so was he, but he got in and it's what he wants so i can't, and never would do anything to change that. things would be so different if he hadn't got in. so i exist until may, then i start living. that's my plan right now. move away for the summer, like i always do, just hopefully somewhere farther. or if i snap and buy a one way ticket to japan maybe i'll leave a note.